oh yeah...

Forgot to mention my new job. I just got hired onto the executive council of the residential learning community association (RLCA). Its a leadership position that I get paid for! They cover the cost to live in the dorms so now tuition and housing is covered. Now I just have to find a way for Santa Clara to pay for my food! Then I'll be coming here for scott free!!! The job is pretty tough though, I have to plan fun events.. kind of like what I do now on Xavier Leadership Council, and I have to attend meetings...kind of like what I do now for all the other groups I'm in, and I have to do two hours of desk time a week in the office... kind of like what I do now at my current job as a desk receptionist at my dorm. Sooooo... I think I'll be able to handle getting paid for what I already do now:)

So much for an easy spring quarter....

Update:
Spanish: just got a B- on my first exam. In Morgan World that means I failed!
Philosophy: my first essay i haven't gotten back yet, but lets just say because of some stress I didn't even get together with my partner to understand what the prompt even meant until ten the night before it was due. So I'm not holding my breath.
English: I got an A- on my first essay but I have another essay due Friday comparing two works I haven't read.
Psychology: this is surprisingly my best class. I got an A- on the first test when the average is a C-. But then again, it only gets more difficult.
In summation: BUH.

Better to have loved and lost than never loved at all

thats all for now about that.

SAN FRAN!

SanFran Weekend:

Lots of pics...
clubbin
shoppin!
street modelin!
huggin!

Philosphy 13

This is word for word the first paragraph of the notes my professor gave me about the reading he is asking us to do for the next two weeks:
Hegel is a very difficult philosopher to read-there is nothing that can be done about that. You cannot read him the way you read other philosophers - say, like Hume. Hume you can read line by line and not go on until you understand each point. If you try that with Hegel, you will never get anywhere. You have to understand the whole of Hegel's philosophy - his total vision - before you can understand the parts. you almost have to know ahead of time what he is saying in any paragraph before you can see that he is saying it. So what do you do? Well you have to read in a circle - and go through the circle many times before particular paragraphs become clear. However, some paragraphs just will never become clear.

Thanks for clearing that up Professor Kain. I was really worried I wouldn't be able to understand this jibber jabber. I am now reassured.

Forecast

Santa Clara's actual forecast for tomorrow on weather.com:
Partly Cloudy. High 72. Precip 10%. Duvall's actual forecast for tomorrow on weather.com:
Showers. High 45. Precip 70%.


Question: Why am I flying to Washington tomorrow?
Answer: I am a disgrace.

TO DO

So I watched the Biggest Loser Finale and got goose bumps over and over again. It was so powerful, a bunch of people who wanted to change, who did. Knowing that I have that power makes me feel so amazing. So I have a goal. I was in a car accident in August and my neck is really messed up. I tried to fix it myself doing daily exercises I got from a physical therapist but after so long it just wasn't working. I still can't run or jump with out severe soreness. My neck hurts in the morning and after a long day. If I get stressed or upset I can't even hold my head up my neck is so weak. I will not sit by and let this continue!! So I have battled with insurance companies and am starting physical therapy! I will do my exercises religiously and do everything that wonderful man tells me to do. Twice a week I will go visit him and be tortured with message and positioning. Most times I will want to just quit because a lot of the exercises and positioning hurts but now I have goals!!! By next year I want to be able to go to sky high with my friends, a place with lots of trampolines. I went once this year and almost died afterward. I couldn't move my neck for days. So that's goal number one. Goal number two: RUN. I can't run. For two reasons. one: I'm out of shape. two: the up and down motions KILLS my neck. So those are my goals. Once I can run and jump on a trampoline I'll be set. Wish me luck on my journey. It will probably take the rest of this school year and all summer but with hard work, dedication, and the inspiration of the finale of biggest loser I WILL SUCCEED!!!!! go neck!

You know what really grinds my gears...

I feel as though my blog has become a place for me to vent. So I'm sorry. I can't promise it will stop. I can only promise I'll be remorseful about it.

Queen Latifa is allowed to be racist... if she's funny

Beauty Shop is a spin off of Barber Shop a movie about a family shop in a black neighborhood trying to survive while a commercialized mega hair salon moves in across the street. Barber Shop uses wit and satire to talk about real racism issues. The characters debate issues and put everything in context. Where Barber Shop succeeded, Beauty Shop crashes and burns. It is probably the most racist movie I have ever seen. Every single white character is a harsh stereotype; including a flamboyantly guy man, a southern white trash girl trying to act black, a naive uptown women who gives her keys to a random black man on the street thinking he is valet, and a racist uptown b-word. The white trash wannabe works in the beauty shop and is continuously ostracized because of her race. Every time the other girls are laughing and having fun this lone white girl tries to play along and is stopped because she obviously can't talk with the black girls. They even get upset with her for using Denzel Washington as an example as a good love scene actor. Like she doesn't have the right to bring up a black actor. Throughout the movie they shoot her harsh looks and say "funny" things about how she doesn't understand. Switch the races. There is a movie about a bunch of white girls leaving out a black girl cause of her race, making racist comments. Comedy? I think not. I read an article on the web about the movie and they sited the "funny reverse-racism." Like racism against white people isn't racism. I understand that all and all the minorities have dealt with A LOT more racism than your average middle aged white guy, but does that excuse it? Is that what Beauty Shop is trying to do? Even out the racism?

I life in Cali

So its been 85 the past three days. And I kind of like it. Tan lines in April... works for me:) Just wanted to make some washingtonians jealous!

What the he!! should I do?

So I'm bored... and procrastinating... and honestly just exited to be on the Internet since it happens rarely in my laptopless life (my precious computer comes back tomorrow!). So anyway... I stare at the screen not wanting to write an essay in Spanish and decide to play my favorite internet game... GOOGLE! I google random words and learn about them. So I'm pondering what to google and I think about the book I'm reading. It is the 8th book in the Left Behind series "The Desecration." Basically the serious is about what happens after Jesus comes back and takes all his believers and leaves the rest of us to deal with the Antichrist. So I google "hell." First on the list is images... yeah I'm sure. Second is dear old Wikipedia. If college has taught me anything its never trust Wikipedia. So I click on the next link "The Truth About Hell." Sounds compelling. After reading the warning to not take this site lightly I continue on down and read about the "true" hell. Mostly their proof is random texts from the Bible and a lot of lava and how the middle of the earth is the actual location of hell and that's why its really hot. I like when Christians tell me that hell is like heaven.. not a physical place we can travel to... sounds more believable that way. So I read on and they inform me what Jesus said about hell and at the end there is a smiley face with a disclaimer that says if this frightens me... I can simply say these words and mean them with all my heart and I will be saved. So yeah. Not the best site for proving hell but honestly I didn't think hell was a place that needed proof what with "faith" and all that. So I move on to the next website on google Hell.com. Don't go there. Pretty sure its a virus. Anyway I meander on down and find a good one and click on www.what-the-hell-is-hell.com/. Sounds informative. This website is different. Its proving that hell is a made up place and concept made by Roman Catholics to scare people into being good. The website doesn't deny Jesus, or Christianity as a whole but uses the Bible to prove that hell isn't real. And it's not our fault for reading that it is. The translation was wrong. Turns out the Hebrew word for "unseen" is translated into "hell" numerous times and so whenever anyone dies and becomes "unseen" they are going to hell! So this isn't as bad as some ridiculous anti bible things I've laughed at. This is real. And scholars are looking at the translations more and more and determining the one word that you really could translate to being "hell" is an actual place, a valley in the middle east. So now I'm really confused. If anyone has any light they would like to shed, or if you're as confused as I, pick up a bible and go to that website and see for yourself. If not, if the people that created that website are lying heretics, if they are going against the word of god, I bet they're going to hell.

SANTA CRUZ!!!!

For those of you who don't know... I am a foot ball goddess!!!!! Look at my stance!
This is Ali, my future Roomie!!!!
This is a hole. Later Jimbo (white boy in back) will be burried in it against his will.

I Can't do Kant

Greetings those who have knowledge through real a priori existence may refer to me based on their intuition of space and time as Emanuel Kant. Of my daily causal substantial hobbies my favorite according to my own perception and appearance of the things in themselves include applying new definitions to words and then using them subjunctively in sentences without neither informing the reader's psyche of the newly appointed definitions or writing in any sort of clear, precise manner to show that my false "selfhood" can reason and have understanding without phenomenon of what I am actually trying to convey.

Translation:
Hey. My name is Emanuel Kant. I really like to play with the definitions of words, mess with sentence structure, and use my own jargon to confuse those who are so naive to think they can actually understand my philosophy on life. I don't actually know what I am trying to say, but who cares.

This might be weird....

We have something called Potty Talk. Potty Talk is a little flier that is put in every stall so we have something to do while in the bathroom. Anyway... the theme this month is sexual assault. Two things on the flier when taken separately are completely reasonable and seem obvious, but when put together are contradicting. On the top of the flier was the definition of consent, and how like we've all heard a million times, a drunk consent is not consent because the girl is too incapacitated to agree to anything. And, on the bottom was a few common misconceptions guys have about rape. The last one was "I was drunk too so its not my fault." The response was "Just like drinking and driving, you are 100% responsible for all of your actions while drunk." This is where things get fuzzy for me. I can't understand why when a guy is drunk he is still responsible for his actions, but when a girl is drunk she's not responsible at all, for her actions, behaviors, or words. So when two people are completely drunk and they have sex, even if the girl dressed provocatively, flirted all night, and finally consented, it is still rape. If it is ok to tell guys to watch their behavior when they're drunk, then why isn't ok to tell girls to not put themselves in those situations. I'm not saying that any girl who gets wasted at a crowded party without friends watching her and dressed in a way that leaves little to the imagination deserves to get raped. But I think she is not preventing it or protecting herself from it. People like to say girls should have the right to dress however, dance however, and act however, without fear of getting raped. But I disagree... I don't think it's smart to wear all black on a rainy foggy night walking along side of a busy highway just as much as I don't think it's smart to dress like a hussy and freak dance and get so drunk you cant think straight around a whole bunch of guys that are drinking also. Why can't girls hold some of the responsibility. We don't like to talk this way because its rude or mean or unjust to those who have been raped in a party situation like this... but sometimes hard things need to be said to protect girls that haven't yet learned how to protect themselves.

New quarter...less sleep

This quarter I am dumb. Or perhaps I was dumb last quarter when I decided to sign up for these classes. I have to wake up at 8:30 every morning and some nights I work until 2!!!!! Make fun of me all you want for complaining about a 9:00 class but for a girl who didn't have to wake up until noon most days last quarter the transition has been rough. My classes are all pretty good though. I have Spanish, with a harder yet more effective teacher. I have philosophy where I have already discovered that the reading is incomprehensible so my plan of action is to just pay close attention to his lecture. I have English, with a kooky teacher and my best tall friend Mikey. Lastly I have Psychology with... six people... total. Should be interesting. No texting in that class!!! That is all for now. I'll give you an update when I'm more annoyed and therefore more entertaining.